I Hate Myself

I printed a bunch of sample edits to tape to see how things actually look on the TV, and everything just seems amateur and fucked up. I've just been laying in bed all day, smoking cigarettes, and thinking about giving up! What the fuck!?!?! I just need to keep filming and let the production work itself out towards the end. If there was a cliff like ten feet away from me, I'd probably jump off of it. Until then, I'll keep dreaming about fantasy football and trying to figure out how to change my Myspace skin back to the old one.